better luck next time
Thursday, July 21, 2005
I got my period today.
Which confirms I'm not pregnant. Yet.
You know what the strange thing about it is? I felt sad. I know we weren't pressuring ourselves to actually get pregnant, and if I'm real honest to myself, I know that it wouldn't have been possible, given the timing and the circumstances.
Still. That quick and swift moment of sadness was so real. I guess I wanted a baby much more than I first thought. Or realized.
Oh well, I'm off to bed. I just felt that I needed to write this down. Maybe one day, when I do have my little Schmuck sitting on my lap, I can read to him/her this post and say -- "See? That's how much Mommy wanted you."
Thursday, July 21, 2005
I got my period today.
Which confirms I'm not pregnant. Yet.
You know what the strange thing about it is? I felt sad. I know we weren't pressuring ourselves to actually get pregnant, and if I'm real honest to myself, I know that it wouldn't have been possible, given the timing and the circumstances.
Still. That quick and swift moment of sadness was so real. I guess I wanted a baby much more than I first thought. Or realized.
Oh well, I'm off to bed. I just felt that I needed to write this down. Maybe one day, when I do have my little Schmuck sitting on my lap, I can read to him/her this post and say -- "See? That's how much Mommy wanted you."
Comments:
hi tin! I can empathize with you. John and I want to have a baby soon, and it depressed me so much when I found out I was not pregnant when all the while I felt that I was already on the way. *sigh*
but, as they say, try and try again!
Goodluck to us! ;-)
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but, as they say, try and try again!
Goodluck to us! ;-)
